The First Week of Work

Ok, so it wasn't bad. I thought it actually was going to be much harder. What helped is Shayla is doing great with the babysitter. So if she is doing good I am doing good. She is taking the bottle great and likes this nipple that the babysitter has and so now I am on the hunt for this nipple. I might have to order it online. I go to see her at lunch which helps ALOT. I don't know if she notices that I am gone but I need that time to see her at lunch. The pumping has been going good and I get about three bottles a day. So so far I have had enough breast milk and it looks like I won't need to supplement. Thank goodness.

The weather here is getting cold. Got down to 19 degrees last night. I think the stressful times of being busy are approaching. We are going to be busy for the next few weekends. I feel the anxiety hitting already. It feels like I have so much to do so little time. I guess I need to keep reminding myself I am not alone. Hayden and Kaelynn are doing great in school. If only we could keep the germs away. Kaelynn got an ear infection and is trying to fight that off. Kaelynn and I are seeing the Midnight Premier of New Moon next week. So excited!!!

Going Back To Work

Wow, I never thought I would say this so soon. I have to go back to work for a little while starting on Monday. My heart is breaking. If we didn't need two incomes I would LOVE to stay home with the kids. Just until they get to be toddlers then we can ship them off. Just kidding. But I love the baby stage. I just have this feeling of wanting to be with Shayla all the time. I wouldn't mind an hour break or something but I won't see her for almost 10 hours throughout the day. The thought of it just kills me. I was blessed to not have to go back to work with my other two kids. I don't know how Mother's do this. It feels like she is being taken away from me. I feel like I am going to miss out on so much. Like her first roll over, her first time sitting up. I think I am planning on going over on my lunch break and nursing her so that way we get to see each other. I will be pumping on my breaks. So then I ask myself what about me. What about time for me? I will be getting home from work trying to see all of my kids and then try to make dinner and keep up with the house in a matter of four hours each night. Doesn't sound like a lot of time to me. Also, she is still waking up at night so hopefully I will be able to function throughout the day. I know I am a strong women so I will get through this some how. These next few months are going to be a blur. Well since it is Thanksgiving this month I am going to try and think of the many blessings that I do have each and every day and give thanks. I am hoping this will get me through these hard times.

Halloween