Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Going Back To Work
Wow, I never thought I would say this so soon. I have to go back to work for a little while starting on Monday. My heart is breaking. If we didn't need two incomes I would LOVE to stay home with the kids. Just until they get to be toddlers then we can ship them off. Just kidding. But I love the baby stage. I just have this feeling of wanting to be with Shayla all the time. I wouldn't mind an hour break or something but I won't see her for almost 10 hours throughout the day. The thought of it just kills me. I was blessed to not have to go back to work with my other two kids. I don't know how Mother's do this. It feels like she is being taken away from me. I feel like I am going to miss out on so much. Like her first roll over, her first time sitting up. I think I am planning on going over on my lunch break and nursing her so that way we get to see each other. I will be pumping on my breaks. So then I ask myself what about me. What about time for me? I will be getting home from work trying to see all of my kids and then try to make dinner and keep up with the house in a matter of four hours each night. Doesn't sound like a lot of time to me. Also, she is still waking up at night so hopefully I will be able to function throughout the day. I know I am a strong women so I will get through this some how. These next few months are going to be a blur. Well since it is Thanksgiving this month I am going to try and think of the many blessings that I do have each and every day and give thanks. I am hoping this will get me through these hard times.
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Sorry, the timing just isn't right for you, is it?!?! Stay strong, and know that I'm going through something similar.... it's so hard to be away from the little ones.
Hi Margaret! We're loving the pictures and the videos of your children.How great to have your blog so we can see them grow up. We know that you are a strong woman and that you can do this. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Don't feel afraid or embarassed to call on your mom and Aunt Allyn for help. I had to work full time when Bryan was 6 mons. old up to when he was about 5 and then part time after that. I understand your feelings as I had my crying moments too when I left him at the hospital staff nursery. I learned to spend most of my non-working hours doing the things that were most important - with him and including him when I did housework, meals,etc.His dad was a big help too. Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks for all our blessings. You will be blessed as you concentrate on your children,Travis,& yourself on your time off. Make simple meals and do only basics in keeping house. Take some quiet time for yourself too - soak in tub, read, take walks, etc. We love you and know you'll be able to do it. Travis will be a big help too with everything and with the children. Your mom and dad will be a big help too. Love you all, Aunt Becky and Uncle John
Man I am so sorry!! That is so sucky! You are a great Mom and one of the STRONGEST women I know...you'll pull it off like a champ! I just know it! Love you! I wish I could live closer to help!!! Love you
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